Ender.

I've typed out seven different entries in the last two hours and deleted every single one.

Catharsis.

I need to get over this. I need to. I'll drive myself insane if I don't. So why is it taking so long?


At this moment in time I wish I could step in a car and drive far, far away.


Like... really far away.

Get the fuck...

My GOD I could write for days.

I can't keep staying in doing nothing. I want to leave this fucking house. I want to GO somewhere!! Anywhere that isn't here. I just need to get away. A change of scenery so to speak. I might try and get the time off so I can go up the north with my mam next week cos it'll be my only chance for a while I'd say.

I wish people had the funds to go on holidays. I really would like nothing better than to rent out a house in the middle of nowhere and just chill for like a week with my boys. Someone give them money! Let's go! Let's go! LET'S GO!

Shiiit.

I got my hair cut short again, and normally I like it short. But whatever way the hairdresser cut it I fucking hate it. It's so boring. Not my style at all. I want it shorter and spikier or something. I dunno, it's just not right. Fuck fuck fuck. I might just take a scissors to it myself. But that requires a trip to town for styling scissors. Fucking effort! Might as well get some bleach while I'm in there and dye it a random colour again. Argh. Next time I think it'll be a DIY job f'sho.

We apologise for the break in transmission.

Well it seems that posi Eilis refuses to go away this time.

Even though I didn't go to cultwatchers last night (cos I had a very bold weekend: 4 subways anyone?!) I still feel good. My clothes are getting looser (I had to buy a belt!) and I've even dug out some summer clothes from my Mom's house that were way too small last summer that now fit! Yaaay!! So anyways, I'm gonna make up for the terrible weekend this week for sure. Sensible choices all round. I also have plans for a bitta the gym today before work. And Pod sure as hell isn't gonna let me forget my promise of 4 trips to the gym with him every week from now on! At this rate I'll be reaching my second stone in no time.

Now that the boys are all exam free hopefully we can get to back to writing some super awesome new shit for people to hear. Also, I spoke to Breen about drumming for non-TP. He is well up for it, so I told him to get practicing.

Yep. It seems life decided to show up after all.

Strike a match and burn away...

I don't know if I want to get rid of every tie that binds me to this place; but I sure as hell wish I could get rid of a few of them.


It's June 1st and nothing has changed. Nothing.