the lion hearted girl.
I am in dire need of some new surroundings. I mean seriously. I need to get out. Moving to Canada is so very far away. And when it comes down to it... I don't even know if it will happen. I'm always making plans. Always making. I never just do. I've been all fucking talk for far too long. Far far far too long. I need to just DO things. Fuck consequences. I've worried too much about other people for far too fucking long. That's not to say I'm gonna turn into a selfish bitch or anything. I just have to start concentrating on my own well-being before anyone else's or I might just lose it one day. I've made myself so sick over nothing the last few weeks and it's starting to take it's toll on my body as well as my mind. I have to go to the doctor ffs! I never, ever go to the doctor. That's how bad it's gotten. I have to start having regular meals instead of just random bits of food. I especially need to get back to eating fruit and vegetables. It's such a sham trying to look after myself when I'm not living at home. In one respect I cannot fucking WAIT to move home and have my mam keep tabs on my diet. But there are so so so many reasons why it's a horrible idea for me to move home. But in fairness... what other choices do I have left? :(
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