Thinspiration... No thanks.

I can't believe there was a point in my life where I seriously considered becoming pro-ana in order to lose weight. I went back to one of the sites I used to read all the time when I was a teenager and fuck me the people on there are so... upsetting. I mean, its a sickness I know, but how can they possibly think that looking like a skeleton is beautiful? Forget about words like hot and sexy. I want to lose weight simply so I can see for myself that I am a beautiful girl and be happy with how I look. But fuck being skeletal thin. I still want to be curvy! I want to be healthy! I want to be able to eat!! No size zero shit for me. I want to look like a young woman not a little boy! Looking back and reading all those pro-ana diaries is like a shock to the system.

I can't believe that people would rather look like this:




Where are her boobs?! Where are her hips?! All I see are ribs and cheekbones and clavicles! Eugh!















when you could look like this:

Now that is the kind of body I want. I do not want to be small and frail and delicate. I want to be voluptuous (which, might I add, does not mean FAT!) and slender, but not skinny to the point of skeletal.















I think I'm going to stop using the word skinny to describe how I want to look. Because after today it has too many negative connotations for me. From now on, I want to be toned and healthy! :D

...And that's my rant for the day.